May 28, 2011 (Day 9) Commit Yourselves

I have been beginning to see the build up of emotions and tension at our house these days. The breakdown began two nights ago where we began to hit a point of complete exhaustion. Cleaning, moving, unpacking, cleaning the old apartment, and adjusting to life at the new house seemed to be all we could take. These are the things on top of the extreme time constraint of having to understand the complexity of the heart, research different facilities, and try to choose the best surgeons to seek out medical advice. Our daily lives changed overnight and we found ourselves sleep deprived and overwhelmed with all the details. 

 

July 14, 2007

It occurred to me that it is impossible to try to find a balance. Chris & I don't have time for leisurely conversations, our baby's life is on the line. If we aren't researching, we are praying, and if we aren't praying we are preparing. The typical married, "Honey how was your day?" conversation has been replaced with " Should we go to Boston, Houston, or Philadelphia to continue our care over the next few months? So many decisions, such little time. And yet, God's grace is sufficient to cover all the areas of our lives that have become and will continue to be out of balance. 

Our tears we shed together bring us closer than any amount of conversations. Our research done allows us to pull together to find the wisdom for what things to cover in prayer. We are starting to learn how to connect on a level in which we have never had to before. What I have come to notice is that it takes a great sense of committment to pull together and fight not only for Jackson but for our entire family. We will not be pulled apart by grief, but we are standing strong in the faith that God will carry us as a family through this painful period of our lives. 

So today, we committ ourselves to Joshua 24:15:

"But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”